A Letter from My Ancestors

Dear Cari,

You speak to us often, and we want you to know that we listen. Often times you speak to us out of a need to express the inner rumblings and turbulence that live in your mind, heart, and soul. We listen quietly and attentively. We protect your truths and stories. We find delight in the songs you sing and the stories you tell us. The tone of your singing voice does not hold weight over here. Which is our polite way to say that we do not mind that you are tone deaf. We hear intention, soul, and emotion. You have that in heaps and barrels.

We have so many things to say to you. You are loved, you are safe, you are okay. We know you experience deep crippling anxiety from time to time. That you wake up some mornings and the air feels so thick that it is difficult to breathe. You inherited that from a couple of us. It is actually in your DNA. You are welcome. We find that if you breathe through it and do not try to fight it, it will pass. Interesting fact, your great aunt also picked her cuticles until they bled. Be curious about your anxiety. Don’t forget to breathe. You hold your breath far too often. Oh, and you definitely need to drink more water.

You come from a long lineage of strong women, you are a warrior. Sometimes the strongest thing is to show your vulnerability. In a safe space of course. Resist the urge to purge your deepest secrets in the kindergarten playground at school drop off. What a gift to be able to explore your inner world, to learn and grow. Most of us over here were not afforded free time, vehicles, modern appliances, or electricity. Some of us were here before proper sewage systems. You do not want imagine what it was like before sewage systems. We hope you can step back for a moment, and look at the big picture of your abundant life. Explore and enjoy the world you live in, especially the flushing toilets.

You should continue to seek and learn, but we encourage you to get comfortable with never fully being found. You are in the middle, in the messiness of life. Being human can be hard, and being human can also be enormously beautiful. Lean into the paradox. There is peace in knowing that two opposing ideas can exist at the same time.  The ideas do not need to compete to be the truth. They can both be true in their own right. There is enough room for your awe and anxiety.

Do not squander the middle out of fear. The end will come for all things that have life. It is an inevitable part of life. Instead of death, we like to call it a transformation.  Your energy will always exist. The truest essence of who you are cannot be destroyed. You will return to the source in which you were birthed from. We will not tell you what happens next. We promise it is worth the wait.

You have inherited an incredible intuition. You can trust your deep inner knowing. Lean into your inner voice and she will teach you about the truths you need to know. We see you ignore your inner voice sometimes. We do not want you to abandon yourself. We hope for you to see your worth, and to step into your truest power. This takes time, we know from experience. We are here for you every step of the way, even when your way is not linear. Guess what? Life is not linear.

You look to external sources for validation and confirmation of your worth and intelligence. All of the answers that you need live within. These are the seeds of your soul. You must water and nourish them, and they will grow into a powerful wild garden. If you spend too much time looking outwards, you end up watering other people’s gardens.  In that case, the grass really does become greener on the other side.

You have an army of ancestors over here. We can provide guidance, but you must choose how you want to live your life. You must sit in stillness. Still your mind, listen. You have a knowing. Can you hear her. She is there. She is telling you that you will never be perfect, but you are a bright light in this world. Through joy and sorrow you must share your light.

For some reason Joseph Campbell is here. Wait one earth second, we do not have time over here. Okay, so he wants us to give you a message:

‘Participate joyfully in the sorrows of the world. We cannot cure the world of sorrows, but we can choose to live in joy. The warrior's approach is to say “yes” to life: “yea” to it all.’
~ Joseph Campbell, The Hero with a Thousand Faces

When you earnestly need a nudge or direction we send a sign your way.

Here are 5 of our most recent signs we have sent you:

1. Last summer, we drew your attention to that mug you bought at the animal farm. The words written on the mug were meant to be read by you. It was the one and only mug in the tiny gift shop. Now that you are reflecting on it, you think you might have bought the shop keepers personal coffee mug. Why was there only one mug in the shop? Now that you think about it even more, you think you might have actually been in someone’s home. That might not have been a gift shop at all. We are sending you on a tangent.
You my dear need to:
BE STILL + KNOW

2. The two birds that pooped on you were a messy message from us. The one in Paris at that tiny cafe on the cobblestone streets, and the one last summer at the Community Park were both sent from your guides. This is a message of good fortune. It is not only a myth, it is based in the truth. You have no idea how difficult it is to get the timing right on this good omen.

3. 11:11, 1:11, and 111 are little wink from us. We see it makes you stop and ponder the possibilities of life. To make a wish for: inner peace, your true calling, to live your fullest and most rich life. This is also a message to let you know that you are on the right path. It is an encouragement to keep going, and exploring.

4. We put pennies in your path for months. A message of support and affirmation that everything is going to work out for you. You need to choose to show up, and your divine timing of your life will show up alongside you.

5. You seemed to ignore the pennies so we started to sprinkle dimes in your path. No, most people are not finding .90 cents in dimes a day. It is not a coincidence. Dear child, you must listen. We know you wake up with a heavy heart. You can use this to better your life and the lives around you. You cannot have light without the darkness. This time of darkness is where you will find the most profound revelations. Again, Be Still + Know.

The squirrel crossing your path being a symbol of a spectacular day ahead, that one is all you. We appreciate the creativity.

Cari, you are our sunshine. Go forth and set your world on fire.

We love you to the other side and back.

With Love,
Your DNA (Dearest Nurturing Ancestors)